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I go, to seek a great perhaps.: This was my very worst of circumstances. I had become despondent and dependant, needing more care than an armful of...

Tue, 04 Jun 2013 15:45:34 +1200

I go, to seek a great perhaps.: This was my very worst of circumstances. I had become despondent and dependant, needing more care than an armful of...:

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His withdrawal only made me more needy, and my neediness only advanced his withdrawals, until soon he was retreating under fire of my weeping pleas of “Where are you going?”, What happened to us?” (dating tip: men LOVE this)

The fact is, I had become addicted to David, and now that his…

Eat Pray Love : An Excerpt

Tue, 04 Jun 2013 03:01:03 +1200

“What’s got you all wadded up?” he drawls, toothpick in mouth, as usual.

“Don’t ask” I say, but then I start talking and tell him every bit of it, concluding with, “And worst of all, I can’t stop obsessing over David. I thought I was over him, but it’s all coming up again.”

He says, “Give it another six months, you’ll feel better.”

“I’ve already given it twelve months, Richard.”

“Then give it six more. Just keep throwin’ six months at it till it goes away. Stuff like this takes time.”

I exhale hotly though my nose, bull-like.

“Groceries [he calls her Groceries, how AWESOME is that?!],” Richard says, “listen to me. Someday you’re gonna look back on this moment of your life as such a sweet time of grieving. You’ll see that you were in mourning and your heart was broken, but your life was changing and you were in the best possible place in the world for it – in a beautiful place of worship, surrounded by grace. Take this time, every minute of it. Let things work themselves out here in India.”

“But I really loved him.”

“Big deal. So you fell in love with someone. Don’t you see what happened? This guy touched a place in your heart deeper than you thought you were capable of reaching. I mean you got zapped, kiddo. But that love you felt, that’s just the beginning. You just got a taste of love. That’s just limited little rinky-dink mortal love. Wait till you see how much more deeply you can love than that. Heck, Groceries – you have the capacity to someday love the whole world. It’s your destiny. Don’t laugh.”

“I’m not laughing.” I was actually crying. “And please don’t laugh at me now, but I think the reason it’s so hard for me to get over this guy is because I seriously believed David was my soul mate.”

“He probably was. Your problem is you don’t understand what that word means. People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that’s holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then they leave. And thank God for it. Your problem is, you just can’t let this one go. It’s over, Groceries. David’s purpose was to shake you up, drive you out of your marriage that you needed to leave, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light could get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you had to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master and beat it. That was his job, and he did great, but now it’s over. Problem is, you can’t accept that his relationship had a real short shelf life. You’re like a dog at the dump, baby – you’re just lickin’ at the empty tin can, trying to get more nutrition out of it. And if you’re not careful, that can’s gonna get stuck on your snout forever and make your life miserable. So drop it.”

“But I love him.”

“So love him.”

“But I miss him.”

“So miss him. Send him some love and light every time you think about him, then drop it. You’re just afraid to let go of the last bits of David because then you’ll be really alone, and Liz Gilbert is scared to death of what will happen if she’s really alone. But here’s what you gotta understand, Groceries. If you clear out all that space in your mind that you’re using right now to obsess about this guy, you’ll have a vacuum there, an open spot – a doorway. And guess what the universe will do with the doorway? It will rush in – God will rush in – and fill you with more love than you ever dreamed. So stop using David to block that door. Let it go.”

“But I wish me and David could —“

He cuts me off. “See, now that’s your problem. You’re wishin’ too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughtta be.”

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Mon, 03 Jun 2013 01:20:31 +1200

Officially weighing 49 kilos :) Please excuse my unpolished...

Sat, 01 Jun 2013 12:35:07 +1200

Officially weighing 49 kilos :)

Please excuse my unpolished toes. I weighed 53 kilos this year and I am just so haaaaapppppyyyyy to have lost weight especially since I’ve had my slacks repaired 3 times because the zipper keeps giving up!lolololol

I basically lost the weight through juicing (blended fruits and veggies) as meal replacements, lemon-cucumber-mint water and warm lemon juice. I also don’t consume soda and junk food as often as I used to.

I’m looking forward to taking care of myself better. Weeeeeee! :D Next step, hiring my friend Mon as my personal fitness instructor but I gotta save up money for it first :)

The Attitude of Gratitude

Wed, 29 May 2013 02:04:10 +1200

In the midst of depression and loss, it is tempting to neglect the things that you have and focus on what you no longer have. Tonight, after working out and dining with my friends, I realized how I have so much to be thankful for.

This is a run down of the awesome things I have been blessed with (in no particular order). Maybe you should do this too, I’d like to see what makes you grateful :)

1. A GOOD JOB

Man, I used to hate this job for many reasons. I have complained incessantly about to virtually everyone because it was not what I wanted. But I have to realize that it is in partial, a fulfillment of my dreams. This job allows me to LEARN.

This job places me in the same room with leaders, decision makers, millionaires, cabinet secretaries and politicians. I get to hear what they say, listen to arguments, see things from their perspective and my, do I learn.

This job is challenging…walking in high heels, leaving the office at 1:00am to report back at 8:00am, travel, write letters, scrabble words, fixing the amazing invention called the fax machine, wrestling with MS Office Applications and what not.

2. MY BODY

I can jump, run, dance, climb, lift things with my body. It’s amazing. I can hug and kiss people, shake hands and reach out.

I used to think my body was my enemy. I was actually my body’s enemy. My friend Mon who has remarkably transformed his body inspires me so much I am getting his services! I can’t wait to do a headstand :)

3. MY FAMILY

I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE my family, phamely, pffffaaaammmmmiilllleeee!!!

4. MY FRIENDS

Those who I suddenly bump into, those who give me sincere hugs and besos after eons of not seeing each other. The friends, who, like Fritz and Kathy Mar do not allow my mind to wander and dwell in its chambers. “Do not go there.” (Flores, F. 2013). The friends who let me unload my burden, the friend who did not turn into my lover.hahaha Dili na unta ta friends karon kung nag uyab ta. Thank God wala ka nagka gusto sa akoa.hahaha

5. FOOD

Food I get to buy, I get to choose and enjoy. Too many of us neglect this. There are far too many hungry people in the world. Be thankful for God’s continuous provision.

6. MY NEW DRESS

I really like it, I’ve worn it twice since I bought it.

7. LEMONS

I love lemons.

8. CHOCOLATE!!!

Nuff said.

9. MUSIC

Food for the soul <3

10. ADELE

Beautiful!

11. FORGIVENESS

Thank you Jesus. Thank you to those who have forgiven me too :)

12. MY BEAUTY

My own kind of beauty which can be perceived as less or more than other types of beauties but it’s my own brand of beauty. I’m thankful that I am fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139), I am beautiful not by anybody else’s standards but by God’s standards :)

13. THOUGHT CATALOG

Reminds me I am not alone.

14. YOUTUBE

Reminds me that there are millions of things to laugh about.

15. CHOCOLATE

It just had to be said twice.

What Mask Are You Wearing? | Jefferson Bethke (by bball1989)

Tue, 28 May 2013 03:04:54 +1200

What Mask Are You Wearing? | Jefferson Bethke (by bball1989)

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Mon, 27 May 2013 23:37:36 +1200

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Mon, 27 May 2013 00:01:03 +1200

Nick Vujicic Fully Living for Jesus...

Sat, 25 May 2013 23:30:00 +1200

Nick Vujicic Fully Living for Jesus Christ.

Inspiring.

Empowering.

CONVICTING. I needed this.

I am a stalker fan of Patty Laurel and Rica Peralejo because...

Sat, 25 May 2013 02:02:00 +1200

I am a ~~stalker~~ fan of Patty Laurel and Rica Peralejo because they’re glowing with bold Christian faith.

I want to be just like them.hihihihi

This is from Patty Laurel-Filart’s Instagram by the way. I don’t have an Instagram ha. *cough* fangirl.

Laying It All On The Altar

Fri, 24 May 2013 23:25:00 +1200

This is submission.

This is me Lord, laying my own desires, my own plans in the altar for you to bless or dismiss.

This is me saying: “You know what I want Lord but let YOUR WILL BE DONE.”

If what I want is not your plan for my life then please take away this desire. Please take over and grant me a new heart filled with your love and not of my own selfish desires.

This is one of the hardest things I have ever done but I am laying it all down on your feet Lord.

Take it away if it pleases you.

lastnote-tamblot: Hearted from:...

Fri, 24 May 2013 02:46:28 +1200

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Hearted from: http://quotes-lover.com/picture-quote/gratitude-is-the-open-door-to-abundance/

And so… the adventure begins :)

Fri, 24 May 2013 02:21:19 +1200

And so… the adventure begins :)

Look What I Found in my DRAFTS.

Fri, 24 May 2013 02:03:09 +1200

All these pictures have been taken from perfectbucketlist.tumblr.com. I didn’t take them myself. Plagiarism is a crime.

HAVE A JOB THAT TRAVELS: Because I like travelling even if I absolutely loathe flying. Because I like meeting people and asking strangers for directions. I also like volunteering to get pictures of strangers because I’m weird and sweet like that.HAHA

LEARN HOW TO DRAW: Because I enjoy it and it makes me happy!

LEARN HOW TO PLAY CHESS: Just because.

LEARN HOW TO DRIVE: Because I can’t stay chicken shit forever.

LET MY HAIR GET REALLY LONG: Because it’s not my hair’s fault when I get a bad day.

HAVE MY DREAM BODY: LONG OVERDUE.

GO ON A ROAD TRIP WITH FRIENDS: Because it will be epic!

BE ABLE TO WALK WELL IN HIGH HEELS: Because I walk funny.

LEARN HOW TO SWIM: Because I’m still not very good at it.

SHOOT A GUN: Because holding a gun is not as cool as target shooting.

HAVE A WARDROBE I ACTUALLY LIKE: Because my new body will need it :)

SCUBA DIVE: Because I’m a loser for not being able to try this yet.

EAT HEALTHIER: Because it’s not just about losing weight, it’s about being healthy.

GROW MY OWN FOOD: Because I already started this week by planting red onions and scallions.

PROJECT: SELF

Wed, 22 May 2013 03:19:03 +1200

To become the godly woman of Proverbs 31: 10-31

ornamentedbeing: Hamda Al Fahim Fall/ Winter 2013 Collection

Sat, 18 May 2013 03:44:11 +1200

ornamentedbeing:

Hamda Al Fahim

Fall/ Winter 2013 Collection

Happy Mother’s Day to my beautiful Mama :) She was 23 when...

Sun, 12 May 2013 14:19:23 +1200

Happy Mother’s Day to my beautiful Mama :)

She was 23 when she had me. At 24, I still find myself constantly wanting and needing my parents’ guidance ~~even though they annoy me sometimes.~~hahaha

I can’t imagine doing what she’s done for us. It is my prayer that I will be as good as a mother and wife as she is.

She is the epitome of strength, courage, kindness, sincerity and most of all, GENUINE FAITH. What an amazing woman!

Yes, that’s my 47 year old mother. Still every inch a beauty inside and out.

Be Careful What You Wish For 'Cause You Just Might Get It

Sun, 28 Apr 2013 03:47:00 +1200

Yes, I ripped that out of a Pussycat Dolls song.

I’ve been panicking since this Thursday, so much so that I cannot even bring myself to focus on the assignment given to me. When I was a fresh graduate looking for a job, I prayed for one that would challenge me and give me an opportunity to grow. I was convinced that the first job that I had was the wrong one and that the current job I had was even worse than the first but I’m still here, nine months in and still breathing.

I am extremely thankful and truly humbled to be thought of as a valuable asset to this organization. Whenever I hear the words “very good”, “I like your initiative”, “you’re sharp” and other compliments like that it boosts my self esteem. Affirmation is a wonderful thing because it motivates you to work even harder and give more of yourself to your craft or chosen career. It also challenges you to outdo yourself and encourages you to share what you know with others.

Just last week I was assigned to chair this BIIIIIIIIG event we’re planning for July. I was surprised even though I was the one who suggested it (the event, not to head it ha) simply because I think that I am too inexperienced to take on this task. It’s fun throwing ideas around but once you’re asked to take action, it really makes you wish you hadn’t opened your big fat mouth in the first place. I’m sure everyone in the workplace has encountered a similar scenario with your boss saying something like “That’s a great idea, why don’t you submit a proposal?” ~~It really makes you want to stab yourself with a fork in the eye.~~

Apart from being the event chair, I’ve also been assigned to write letters to consul generals and ASEAN ministers, sponsorship letters, invitation to the media and press releases among others. I swear I almost cried in front of my computer because I was too stunned and too scared. All these letters will be signed by our president, who, by the way, I truly admire so to say that I am intimidated would be an understatement.

But as I reflected on this, I found comfort in the word of God realizing that I have not achieved all these things on my own. Time and again, God has brought me through what he has brought me to. By his spirit, I have been made to do all the good things I have done.

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I realized that worry comes when you rely on yourself and your own capacity. One of the most important lessons I learned in my budding career is to be dependent on God, to pray for even the littlest things like staying awake at work when all I want to do is hide under my comforter. Really, this works for me even without coffee :)

Often times, we become so consumed with self belief and confidence that we forget how God has been there all the time to guide us and even how other people have contributed to our success by teaching us, helping us and even simply by supporting us. Staying humble is not an easy thing to do especially when we hear words of praise and gain admiration from others but we must always remember that arrogance and pride can destroy us and keep us away from growth and meaningful relationships.Our arrogance and pride really screw us up by making us believe that we are the only ones capable of doing what we do, that we are right or that we must always be right, that we must always have the answers to everything. It also distances us from God, remember what happened to Lucifer? Yeah, he was God’s favorite angel and it all went straight to his head and now he’s swimming in fiery sulfur working harder than Darth Vader to get people into the dark side.

More than carrying out the event successfully, I pray that the Lord will remind me (and my colleagues as well :D ) to stay in faith in times of trial and remain humble in times of victory knowing fully well that is only through the Holy Spirit that we are able to overcome fear and do great things.

Mariah Carey - Always Be My Baby Oh, the 90’s.

Mon, 22 Apr 2013 03:06:28 +1200

Mariah Carey - Always Be My Baby

Oh, the 90’s.

boo boo lesson

Sun, 14 Apr 2013 18:16:08 +1200

Last night / in the wee hours of the morning, my cousin’s friend “Cutie” said that her dentist, who also happens to be a host would occasionally pause whenever his commercials or spiels would play on the television. To which I replied “Yuck, grabe ka narcissistic!” And then I found that the dentist/host was actually her uncle.

Good thing she was a good sport and laughed.

Note to self: SHATTTAAAP. Just give general comments.